The Clot in my Neighbor's Eye


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Ezekiel J. Krahlin
http://www.gay-bible.org
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THE CLOT IN MY NEIGHBOR'S EYE
(A True Tale From The Castro. Eat your heart out, Armistead!)

© 2006 by Ezekiel J. Krahlin



I've suddenly gotten embroiled in a medical malpractice suit
with a formerly homeless friend. His arm required two
operations, due to a dirty needle when he was still using. The
first operation was just over a year ago.

But the last operation, the surgeon "accidentally" sliced an
artery, said nothing about that, and sewed him up. Well, Jonny
had a lump grow under the wound two nights later, he pushed it
out,and out came what looked like a long, fat, bright red
worm. It was a BLOOD CLOT...and blood started spurting from
his arm.

And as it also turns out, Jonny has become (over the process
of four years) my very dearest of friends, and Platonic lover.
So I'm in a rage. Begging anyone who reads this, to call
and/or e-mail S.F. Mayor Gavin Newsom. Tell them to listen to
me, Zeke Krahlin, not hang up or ignore him. Please read on,
to learn why I'm posting this appeal everywhere.

As a counterculture type, I've remained unknown to the public
at large, regardless of my many years devotion to gay and
street activism. So it comes as a difficult challenge, to get
the mayor's office, the gay media, and even the mainstream
media, to listen to my desperate appeal that really needs
answering NOW, not waiting till some "next" meeting a week or
two down the line. For by that time, JONNY MIGHT BE DEAD, or
lose his arm. I tell them to visit my website [ gay-bible.org
] since it also serves quite well for my online portfolio.
Therein is all the evidence and history of my activism, and
many of my good works.

I also realize that Goddess for whatever reason, has chosen me
to become a powerful shaman. And that the path of a shaman
includes a whole bunch of years where you are ignored,
vilified, humiliated, and otherwise treated like a loser, a
nobody. But as a maturing spirit, I accept this situation--as
I now do all difficult situations--as a CHALLENGE to overcome
this terrible obstacle. And one way to do this, is COMPOSE
THIS MESSAGE, and distribute throughout the Internet.

This is an EMERGENCY, and I want AT LEAST, leaders in this Bay
Area to WITNESS how medical abuse KILLS people, and/or at
least DEBILITATES their lives by INTENTIONALLY SETTING THEM UP
to become HIGHLY SUSCEPTIBLE to horrid viruses and bacterium
such as the FLESH EATING VIRUS and its less rabid twin
CELLULITIS, which the doctor said his arm may develop into
having a case of.

MAY develop? Is this a psychological preparation for my Jonny
to ACCEPT this "cellulitis" which then will lead to getting
him to ACCEPT the loss of a limb. Yeah, right. This is nothing
less than Nazi butchery.

I waited at home for TWO HOURS to see if the mayor's office
would get back to me, like they said...but nope, they did not.
Even though I made sure THEY KNOW that Jonny is a great guy
who does a lot of good...was a homeless heroin addict until
recently (thanks in part to my constant friendship; often from
a distance to avoid codependency). I had to step out for
coffee and unwind. When I got home a few hours later, STILL NO
PHONE CALL from ANY media outlet I called, as well as the
Mayor's office. Here's the list of places I did call.
Responses were varied, but all were NOT really interested in
even directing me to a useful resource...such as a reporter
who MIGHT see this as a big scoop.

No, it's all just pure, unadulterated HATRED against
homosexuals ("Why won't they go away?" "THEY'RE the reason the
world's such a mess!"), and against ANYONE ELSE who is
destitute, and not playing the power elite game by kissing its
ass 24/7.

Now, no one in authority has yet to show some recognition
towards Jonny's good spirit. And I can only have faith in my
angels, that Jonny's arm will heal WITHOUT depending up any
doctor, hospital, authority, or so-called "outreach" services.
For the EMERGENCY has to do with an actively clotting
ARTERY...the OTHER long term issues around this, I can deal
with fine...but Jonny is NOT OUT OF THE WOODS yet, AFAICT; and
as someone who walks the Path of Joy as best he can, I really
don't think I'm obsessing over a worst-case scenario, but
TRULY ANSWERING TO MY CONSCIENCE. And I believe this
particular situation is a prime example of the difference
between true love and ethical responsibility that many would
nihilistically regard as full-blown codependency.

And this is indeed a large bone I have to pick with the
12-step community: I believe the tenet of avoiding
codependency is WAY TOO OFTEN used as an excuse to shun your
brother when he is lost and suffering. It's a cleverly VICIOUS
way of wrecking real friendships and more intimate, joyful
relations...probably out of jealousy. When the 12-step process
turns into one where it's not USED for a game of
one-upsmanship, then maybe I'll find new respect in that
community, and less revulsion. Meanwhile, I'll continue my OWN
methodology withOUT 12-step and Alanon dogma...performing my
highly successful healings MINUS all that pathetic drivel.

If Jonny's going to lose an arm or (goddess forbid) DIE, I
want it IN THEIR FACES NOW. Don't let them sweep this under
the carpet! If our leaders can't display this simple request
of compassion...that would only serve to be a feather in THEIR
cap, as well--then we must EACH assume SOME responsibility in
resolving this to a favorable outcome for Jonny. Whose victory
shall also lead the way towards liberating others who are/were
homeless and addicted with NO real outreach from those who are
SUPPOSED to serve the public, ESPECIALLY AND ABOVE ALL, in
life-threatening situations for ANY of our residents.
INCLUDING those without a roof over their heads, those who are
NOT heterosexual, and those who DARE to be creative.

It's Inquisition II! It's the witch hunts all over again! It's
worldwide Nazi Dominion! It's all that rolled up into one, and
much, much more! Starring guess who? The Governator! 

So THIS is what I'm occupied with these days. Put out the word
re. Jonny and others like him who are victims of medical
abuse, neglect, experimentation, and torture. It's happening
again...but no one cares, at City Hall. In fact, they are
PARTICIPATING in it...the corruption's THAT complete.

I wanted the Mayor to shake Jonny's hand, to thank him for
making the streets of Gay Mecca safer for sexual
minorities...and for helping SO MANY homeless get their acts
together. Now, just when Jonny is on an even keel, respecting
every thing i suggest for his betterment...along comes this
tragic medical nightmare.

Jonny is the reason why the Recycling Center front of Safeway
on Market & Dolores Streets, is now very clean, organized,
without any bad odors...and all the workers are better
organized and no one acts rude, mean or violent. Jonny is the
reason why the streets in The Castro are (relatively)
safer...for he numbers among a handful of decent people who
work among the homeless to improve their quality of life and
thus that of the neighborhood. Jonny watches over all his
friends, include those who, like myself, are gay. While there
are indeed nasty curs out there on the streets, there are also
a handful of great guys and gals...and Jonny is definitely one
of them.

Jonny ALSO shows much promise as a talented computer
programmer and/or hacker...just for those in cyberspace who
admire such talent, as I do. He is already building working
PCs by cobbling together discarded parts so available to him
via recycled garbage. And this, before he even has taken his
first class...which he is soon scheduled for; that is: his
first semester at community college for computer science.

I wanted the Mayor to PERSONALLY assign to Jonny the BEST
attorney possible to fight the Nazi injustice going down at
S.F. General. Jonny may NEVER see a doctor again, even if *I
have to do operate on him myself.

I wanted the Mayor to OFFER Jonny a position of influence
where he can CONTINUE to help others less fortunate...and do
it even BETTER with our city's resources backing him up.

But what I wanted, probably won't happen, I now realize. This
MUST be a grassroots inspired movement. Hence, this appeal.

I know NUMEROUS OTHER homeless people (many of whom I DESPISE
because of their stubborn clinging on to their
bible-brainwashed homophobia), who've been NEEDLESSLY SCARRED
by surgeons at S.F. General, simply to REMIND THEM that they
are NOT part of the wealthy classes who have the money to buy
premium health care. To remind them they are less than human,
in their eyes.

HOW TO REACH THE OFFICE OF MAYOR NEWSOM: 

Telephone: (415) 554-6141 
TDD: (415) 252-3107 
Fax: (415) 554-6160 
Email: Gavin Newsom

FOR EXTRA GOLD STARS (from Gaia), CONTACT MEDIA OUTLETS IN AND
AROUND SAN FRANCISCO, INCLUDING:

Email: Bay Area Reporter (LGBT media)

Email: SF Bay Times (LGBT media)

Email: SF Bay Guardian

Email: SF Chronicle

Email: SF Examiner

Email: Street Sheet

Email: SF Weekly

Email: East Bay Express

KGO NEWS (ABC ch. 7) 
Contact page: 
http://www.abclocal.go.com/kgo/aboutus/email_form.html
Main phone: 
(415) 954-7777 
News Fax: 
(415) 956-6402 

KRON NEWS (ch. 4) 
Submit news tips: 
http://www.kron.com/Global/story.asp?S=510709&nav=5D8K5Bz9
Breaking news: 
(415) 561-8000 

And since I'm on a roll, let me be sure that everyone's
consciousness is raised to realize that a major reason for
these cruel prejudices is ANTI-GAY DOGMA. For in so giving a
GODLY seal of approval towards terrorizing homosexuals, it
then keeps the door open towards persecuting any OTHER
minority group, as well as keep females relegated to sex
workers, house slaves, and breeding factories. For
condemnation of same-sex love perpetrates male violence, and
is the cause of MANY if not MOST of our wars.

It seems to me that the lack of concern and/or outright
hostility I've received not just from the mayor's office, but
from the gay and mainstream local news media, reveals a horrid
reality staring us in the face. No, this is way scary, though
true:

For what this tells me (being God's Little Litmus Test For Our
Queer Community, that I am), is that even our LEADERS of the
San Francisco Bay Area--including all the lower tiers of power
in this WASP hierarchy--are just as ready as anyone ELSE in
these sorry so-called "united" states, to terrorize, root out,
round up, torture, and MURDER everyone they see, know of, or
hear about, that seems to be homosexual or some OTHER
non-hetero persuasion.

For in so brain washing ALL people against queers, almost
EVERY non-gay minority still harbors ENORMOUS hatred and
wishes for violence and death of gay people. And that is the
open door common to each, through which our Capitalist Masters
maintain their (seemingly) Indivisible Hegemony.

My Goddess Athena (of whom I number among Her most DEVOTED
servants) has handed me a sword in lieu of an olive branch.

Most sincerely, 


Ezekiel Joseph Krahlin 
April 9, 2005

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